I've had a sexual fantasy in my head since I was a high school girl. It's a moment in my life I've never experienced- and had only shared with one other person until this moment. I think 27 years is long enough to keep the secret- I'm ready to expose my deepest, darkest sexual fantasy to the world (or at least our faithful followers).
Even as a fifteen year old girl I think it was quite imaginative, romantic and sensual (keep in my mind at the time I thought of the fantasy I was still a virgin)...as a 42-year old mom of three- I think it's still do-able...with the right person.
As a teen growing up in the 80's I was addicted to hair and stadium rock bands (another li'l secret- I still am). Journey was my ultimate band. I could sit in my bedroom and listen to their albums (yes, albums) for hours on end and get lost in the bittersweet words, ear-catching rhythms and seductive voice of lead singer Steve Perry.
My favorite single from Journey was Open Arms.
"Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind?
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side"
That chorus just says love all over it. Words of love to me and my soul.
I've always imagined making love to that song playing in the background. Two bodies moving to the rhythm. Love connecting at every level (mind, body and soul). Steve Perry's voice serenading us on a hill in the lush green grass.
I know it may not seem like much of a fantasy- but it's mine. Simple. Romantic. Full of love.
For years the man in the scene was unknown...but now I know who it is. It's my soulmate. My best friend. The man I can share anything with and be myself. The man I've waited all my life for.
My fantasy man has a face, a name and will always be the center of my heart.